I have come to a realization that when we start opening up to someone we actually will begin to feel better. it's like a wall that you have built around yourself starts to break down into smaller pieces and the other party starts to open up to you too. it's like a fresh start of wind between your friendship and it seems sometimes that it can only get better from there.

and then there's another thing. i realize that once you start to be ready to open up there seems to be no more emotional pain within you that you struggle and suffer with each day. your whole mental image of the world, yourself and finally your heart seems to be lighter and your life seems to be more enjoyalbe. feelings are that are meant to be a secret to you can't seem to depict them in words that are abstract.

of course, the first initial step of opening up is the hardest. cause we're afraid of taking the first step. cause we're afraid that someone may judgemental and worse tell and spill our secrets to the whole world. afterall, we learn so many times in the most cruel ways of betrayal.
but i guess it takes time to know and to learn about one another. until then we still must becareful, cause that's how this world works:

so unnaturally twisted.

the illusionist:
nothing is what it seems